Today

I am a very lucky women! I have a wonderful family, and when things happen in our world to other people it only makes me more thankful that I have been given this day to spend it with my kids and husband! At the end of the day I always think..." if only I would have made time for this and that" or " was that tv show really more important than reading with my son?".... I create many opportunities for "do-overs" and I don't think its so bad to want to make changes, what's bad is that I often beat myself up with negative thoughts about what kind of mother/wife I am; this creates an obstacle in which I overeat to overcompensate for the feelings that negative feelings that I create. I have been learning to change this and its working! I am becoming a much more dependent women who is learning that my self-worth is not dictated by feelings but by the person that I am and the person I want to be!
My marriage has had good days and bad days, lately many of those days are good ones. John and I are reaching new levels within ourselves and are not so "dependent" on each other and that is bringing a new level of confidence in our relationship. I believe in him and he believes in me.. ( kinda sounds like a Kenny Rogers song--lol)Thanks babe for our 16 years of marriage!
I am also lucky to have Hannah and Johnny! What else can I say about my kids. They drive me crazy-------but I love them!
I am leaving for Mexico tomorrow, perhaps that is why I am being sentimental today.. I just want the world to know that I am a lucky women!

New Years Eve

To ring in the New Year, John and Hannah were able to go to a Hockey game---The St.Louis Blues Hockey game! I was supposed to go with John and my sister and her husband but I got sick and did not want to go. My sister did not want to go without me so my husband took Hannah and my brother-in-law took Becky ( his daughter) and they had a great time!

Johnny and myself along with my mother played games all night long! I love playing games! We also watched "Trapped in Paradise" one of my favorite winter movies. I laugh so hard! My mom and I laughed and laughed and laughed!

The Measure of a Man

I am finding out that I really enjoy blogging..I don't know who truly reads these, but I like writing about my life and later my kids and their kids can see how truly "nuts" I was.. LOL


I have always loved John, but lately I am learning a new kind of love for him. Respect, honor and pride for him. Its a much deeper love that honestly scares me to think about. I am a guarded person and he has "torn down the walls to my heart" and I love him!

If anyone knows my husband, you know the challenges he had in his younger years. He hates to talk about it, but I love him for it. He is a fighter! He has courage! He is an overcomer! He is a hard worker! I mean look at him, he started off as a city worker and now is a boss over the water and street dept.. and he is in his BA degree program. Wow!

Ok, so I love my husband.. its my blog.. don't read it.. LOL

Today, we went shopping. John has discovered this new love of wearing nice clothes.. I mean ties, and all.. He looks really good in them..:) and we were at Kohls and they had jackets on sale.. a 200 Chaps Jacket for 80.00. He has been wanting a nice jacket to wear with his nice clothes all he has is his work jacket. So, I told him to try it on just to see how it would look.. WOW, YOU should have seen his face. He knew he looked good. He felt proud and it showed! He was just beaming. I asked him if we had the money to pay for it because I wanted him to have it and he said no. :( Well then I remembered his mom gave him money for Christmas and I reminded him of it and he said he was saving that for my cruise. How unselfish is he?
I would rather go on the cruise with no money than to walk out of that store without his jacket. It was his Christmas money! He never buys for himself and by golly he was today!!!!!!!!!

I totally convinced him to buy the jacket. It looks great on him! Thanks Mom for the Christmas money you bought your son a jacket. :) LOL next on our list is a new pair of shoes..

I have seen many changes in my husband and I don't think he is changing who he is only he is becoming more confident and I am proud of him. ;)