Why does the New Year bring thoughts of the year past? It's just another day, or its that day that people finally feel they have the freedom to try something new, or to give up something old. I started thinking about that today, what is it about 2010 that I would like to remember or forget? What can I do about 2011 to make my life a bit better? I am tired of diets and resolutions, I am not going to do either. I am,however,going to make a statement of fact. A resolution is something we "try" to change but underneath it all, we don't change a thing. It's a feel good moment in hopes that another year is better than the last. A statement of fact is what it is-FACT! No feel good moments, not hopes that get diminished because we fail. So, in essence my Fact for 2011:
**Being Healthy-even if it means I am overweight a bit. If I am eating healthy and exercising and the result is that I am still not a model, then so-be-it.I will not be a prisoner to the scale. I will fail! I will fall! I will cry! I will eat out of boredom! I will eat because I am happy! I will eat because I am sad! I will eat healthy, I will be stronger and I will accept that life can pass me by and yet for another year I spent it worried about how I looked and not about how I feel. Fact, that will change!
**Spending more time with the kids than trying to spend time in peace and quite. I am sure my days of P & Q are sooner that what I think, so I dont' want to waste the time now. Turning the TV off will happen more than year than before, and yes I will fall back into my old patterns of wanting to escape into my room,shut the door, watch TV, read a book,and that is ok, because the Fact is that the next day I will spend it with my kids and learn that I too need time alone and that is OK!
**Keeping my house organized!What who am I kidding.The fact is, my house is a mess. I live here, my kids live here, my husband lives here and I am not a super-hero. Fine, who cares! I am tired of wasting time thinking I have to clean all the time. If my house is a mess and you come over, you won't hear an appolgy for me, because that day I spent time with the kids, or read a book or relaxed after a long day at work.
So, my year of 2011 will be better than 2010 because I am putting things out of my mind to the best of my ablity. I will learn to forgive myself for being my worst enemy. For trying to be someone I am not. I have many, many regrets with 2010 and many, many blessings as well.
Goodbye 2010 bring on the new year!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
A lot of changes!
I have recently started a new job at Urgent Care as a Customer rep and Insurance Claims. I am LOVING it! The hours are wonderful, but I do have to work! LOL no more christmas break, summer break but HELLO to more money!
We have been getting things ready for Frida to come and stay with us for a year. Thank you to mom and dad for coming this weekend to paint and get a lot of things done that needed to get done. Bascilly, to light a fire up our buts to help get us going. LOL
Just wanted to blog about the new changes. I am a very lucky women. John and I were laying outside on the trampoline together and enjoying the stars and I was thinking how lucky I am to be with someone who listines, forgives does not run away from problems but handles them head-on. I am lucky!
We have been getting things ready for Frida to come and stay with us for a year. Thank you to mom and dad for coming this weekend to paint and get a lot of things done that needed to get done. Bascilly, to light a fire up our buts to help get us going. LOL
Just wanted to blog about the new changes. I am a very lucky women. John and I were laying outside on the trampoline together and enjoying the stars and I was thinking how lucky I am to be with someone who listines, forgives does not run away from problems but handles them head-on. I am lucky!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Needle and Thread
A needle and thread can mend more than clothing,
it can allow a person to "sow" what they reaped.
A needle can mend a broken heart,
in order to allow forgiveness to be stitched in.
A needle can mend wrong-doings in a relationship,
in order for maturity to stretch as elastic.
When something is torn people often look for a quick fix,
a needle and thread takes time to mend,
allowing healing and forgiveness to begin!
(by Lena)
it can allow a person to "sow" what they reaped.
A needle can mend a broken heart,
in order to allow forgiveness to be stitched in.
A needle can mend wrong-doings in a relationship,
in order for maturity to stretch as elastic.
When something is torn people often look for a quick fix,
a needle and thread takes time to mend,
allowing healing and forgiveness to begin!
(by Lena)
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Happy Fathers Day
Dear John,
You are a wonderful father to our kids. You create a safe and loving home for us. Johnny loves working with you and you are so good with allowing him to do dangerous things, I seriously don't like that but I can "suck" it up and let my boy grow into the kind of man his father is. Hannah has always been a daddy's girl, and I think that is wonderful! Thanks for being the wonderful Dad that you are and the wonderful husband you are to me! ;)
Dear my two Dads,
I hate that on this day it is bittersweet. I am celebrating the father of my kids yet I miss out on celebrating with my dads. Bill was a wonderful father to me and walked me down the isle at my wedding. He could make me laugh so hard. I loved how much he loved my mother. I hated seeing him pass and seeing what cancer can do, but today I will celebrate how much I loved him and how much I think of him. My dad was wonderful too. I miss that I did not open myself up to truly get to know him and if I could go back into time, I would make getting to know my dad a priority! Happy Fathers day dads!
Dear Father-in-law,
I don't tell you often, but I love you so much! You are always there for us, even when you don't want to be. ;) I miss you living close by. Many great memories. I don't think I can play mononlopy without thinking the "community chest" is not really called "community breast" that still cracks me up!
Happy Fathers Day! ;)
You are a wonderful father to our kids. You create a safe and loving home for us. Johnny loves working with you and you are so good with allowing him to do dangerous things, I seriously don't like that but I can "suck" it up and let my boy grow into the kind of man his father is. Hannah has always been a daddy's girl, and I think that is wonderful! Thanks for being the wonderful Dad that you are and the wonderful husband you are to me! ;)
Dear my two Dads,
I hate that on this day it is bittersweet. I am celebrating the father of my kids yet I miss out on celebrating with my dads. Bill was a wonderful father to me and walked me down the isle at my wedding. He could make me laugh so hard. I loved how much he loved my mother. I hated seeing him pass and seeing what cancer can do, but today I will celebrate how much I loved him and how much I think of him. My dad was wonderful too. I miss that I did not open myself up to truly get to know him and if I could go back into time, I would make getting to know my dad a priority! Happy Fathers day dads!
Dear Father-in-law,
I don't tell you often, but I love you so much! You are always there for us, even when you don't want to be. ;) I miss you living close by. Many great memories. I don't think I can play mononlopy without thinking the "community chest" is not really called "community breast" that still cracks me up!
Happy Fathers Day! ;)
Friday, June 18, 2010
John's Schooling
This week has been the perfect example of how life will be when John is done with school! I am super proud of him, but to be honest these past couple years have taken a toll on all of us! This week has been great since he has been off of school! I had forgotten how it was to snuggle and talk and do things together!
We can do this babe! When you are done with school you will have accomplished a huge goal in your life and I am proud of you! If we can last out this storm, we can make it through a Tsunami together! I remember hearing a saying from Max Lucado.." Don't tell God how big your storm is, but tell the strom how big your God is".
I love you, we can do this!
We can do this babe! When you are done with school you will have accomplished a huge goal in your life and I am proud of you! If we can last out this storm, we can make it through a Tsunami together! I remember hearing a saying from Max Lucado.." Don't tell God how big your storm is, but tell the strom how big your God is".
I love you, we can do this!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Mirror-written by me
Mirror, Mirror hello it’s me…
Tell me again, what do you see?
Go beyond my looks, and into my soul
Tell me the truth, I need to know!
I put on my makeup and fix my hair,
I look at my reflection—I can only stare!
Mirror, Mirror, tell me what you see.
Am I as ugly, as I have been lead to believe?
All the imperfections are easy to hide,
Just put on a cover and hide all the lies.
The pain from the past, is not reflected,
Cause in you Mirror-I have protected.
You can only see what I want you to see,
Not even you can know the real me.
For my soul is not available for reflection,
You make it easy to hide, my imperfections.
I can walk away—and forget for one day,
What it is that I see,
What it is that you see,
Is the perfect example of
Me hiding Me!
author: Lena K Roach
not the best, but I wrote it nonetheless
Tell me again, what do you see?
Go beyond my looks, and into my soul
Tell me the truth, I need to know!
I put on my makeup and fix my hair,
I look at my reflection—I can only stare!
Mirror, Mirror, tell me what you see.
Am I as ugly, as I have been lead to believe?
All the imperfections are easy to hide,
Just put on a cover and hide all the lies.
The pain from the past, is not reflected,
Cause in you Mirror-I have protected.
You can only see what I want you to see,
Not even you can know the real me.
For my soul is not available for reflection,
You make it easy to hide, my imperfections.
I can walk away—and forget for one day,
What it is that I see,
What it is that you see,
Is the perfect example of
Me hiding Me!
author: Lena K Roach
not the best, but I wrote it nonetheless
Friday, June 11, 2010
Freida
For those of you who do not know, John and I are taking in a foreign exchange student from Sweden. Freida and I talk everyday and she is going to fit right into our family. I love her already. I will be blogging a lot about her. John and I are really excited to take this new journey and the kids are just as excited. Keep watching the blogs for great stories about our new daughter!
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