Memories

The last few years we seemed to have our favorite meal for Christmas; Fettuccine Alfredo! This year I was uncertain if I could make it Gluten Free. I found a package of Gluten Free Alfredo mix and I made it and it was yummy! I always get out our best dishes ( my oldest sister bought them for me years ago) and made our meal special! I like to do this several times a year, why have nice dishes to just store in a china cabinet? I want to use mine! :) I want a chip on a plate or a cup or bowl! Those chips only creates memories and someday my kids will say; "mom do you remember when I did this?"!
Today, I am taking the time to appreciate my kids. The love that John and I have for them, the time that God has granted us to have! I am thankful! I might not have the nicest china, or silk tablecloths and crystal candlesticks, but we had a wonderful meal that was special and worthy of a memory all in honor of Jesus our Lord! :)

Posting from my husband

this in response to my earlier blog! Thanks babe for your comments and what is shoe soup? I did not know we were that rich!!! I was going to make "stone soup"... :)


Deep thoughts. But I totally have to agree. Self-sacrificing love is an endless love that is real and true. We still have time to fix our problems and work on a self sacrificing love. Unfortunately for the person you know he figured it out to late. It is funny that the time a person can sit and ponder on issues that many things can be revealed. One reason why I loved to play hockey. The drive down and back was a reflection moment and I figured alot of stuff out on these trips. With so much going on at one time, sometimes it is hard to control every emotion that a person goes through. For me it is when one of the kids acts the way they do. I am a firm believer that things will get better. This stuff takes time with anything else like college and losing weight it doesn't happen tomorrow. It's a daily battle. The overwhelmingness of the amount of activities and information overload is enough to drive someone mad. Shall we discuss it over shoe soup a little bit more this evening?

Thoughts!

Today I have many thoughts and I don't know how to really put them all down into words! Things have been changing in my home lately. John is doing great in college and I am trying to lose weight and be healthy and our kids are growing up. My marriage is taking on a new course with John and I both at different points in our lives. I guess that is what will keep the element of surprise to our marriage though. I think its OK to change and go into a different direction that what a person once thought;I also think its equally important to be supportive of those changes.



I know someone who is in prison who told me something the other day that I have been repeating in my head over and over and that is real love is self-sacrificing and that if he would have known that in his life, things would be different. I have been thinking about that and how I act in my relationship with my husband. Sometimes it is all about me. I would like to change that, and if I would make it about him I know in return he would make it about me and what an awesome marriage we could have. Right now we are serving ourselves. We live in the "its all about me" world and you know, its not all about me.. Its about no greater love than one man could give to lay his life down for his friend. That is what that saying is about. Self-sacrificing love!

Just my thoughts of the day!

THIS IS ME RIGHT NOW... AND THEN LATER I WILL POST ANOTHER ONE!

THIS IS ME AT MY HEAVIEST!

My weight has always been an issue with me.. It has been hard to lose the weight. Some people can say " it's not hard, just don't eat" honestly; until a person has been overweight they don't know the emotional challenges that comes along with the weight. For me, I have hidden behind my weight, and it allowed me to be insecure and "under-active" basically it has allowed me to hide. Yea I love food, but my problem was not really in the food itself but the power of the food to "heal" my emotions and validate what I felt about myself.

Finally, I am overcoming emotions and allowing myself to change from the inside out. I am stepping up and telling myself that I don't need to hide to get active and be happy. Food is not my enemy, food is not my power, food is now my strength I still have my down moments, but I am changing how I eat in my down moments. I am proud of the me that is coming out of hiding. Its the same me, I am who I am, I am not changing, just allowing myself the freedom to be me.

I know the journey has just started and the journey will be a long one but I am healing! I am! Sig Frued once stated that the human mind is like an ice berg only surfaces come in and out and until the ice berg reaches it full heights, emotions are left underneath. My iceberg is not so small anymore! The Titantic can see it! LOL