Life

I guess I need to get caught up in my blogging-I have been kinda busy lately! Anyway, yesterday I was looking out my kitchen window and then I saw John, my wonderful husband, on a kiddie bike, wearing Johnny's El Tora Loco hat with horns sticking out of it. It brought a huge smile to my face and I starting thinking how amazing he is, better yet how lucky I am!
We can have our moments, we are NOT perfect and most times he can make me so mad that I want to scream, but then we have the moments where he makes me smile, or makes me a bubble bath, calls me in the day to tell me he loves me. Sometimes he will text me things, well lets just say I cannot put on the Internet..LOL The good always makes up for the rough patches!

I wish that I could magically fix things in our marriage to make it more solid-like finances! I think money is the root of many relationship issues. John and I have not always been responsible, and then when we try to be responsible we mess it too! Lately we have been trying to adapt to Dave Ramseys Get out of Debt strategy, I am not doing so well on that. We have knocked out over $3,000.00 in debt.. Yea.. I am shocked too..it just seems like the more we pay off the more that accumulates!
I try to make a budget-honest I do- its t he sticking to it that is hard. I am a problem with needing to make sure everyting is ok and that everyone has what they need ( or think they need) that I don't leave enough money for my bills or enough money for whatever I would need money for. LOL!
I think if I could get the entire family on board with not going to wal-mart just because etc, it could be ok.. I am starting to figure out that I can save money and still feed Hannah good food, its still expensive for me, but its not like it was in the beginning!
Anyway, today I was thinking: Lena, it is time for your life to start.. stop playing house, this is for real.. wake up!!!! How? How does one just admit defeat? How do they be responsible? How do they change? So, as I am blogging my LIFE, I am contemplating many new changes......but I may need advice!
How did I go from loving my husband to changing my life all in one blog? To sum it up.. Its me! LOL.. I go from A-Z in 5, no Waite 2 seconds.. LOL

YES! PIZZA!

Ok, so Hannah and I finally found a pizza crust mix that we love, love, love! The best part is...it was cheap! I think I paid 4.69 for a bag and I can make a 2 huge pizza's. I think now I am going to make a bunch of personal pan pizza crust that I can freeze and then when we need a pizza we can thaw it out and put our toppings on it. Wal-Mart labels their pizza sauce as Gluten Free so this is a wonderful find for us! I can also make bread sticks for us and mixed with yummy salad it would be perfect! I am sooo excited!

I just wanted to share this with the world!

Johnny's Concert

Look at my handsome son! He worked so hard for his solo that he had..I am so proud of him! Johnny loves to perform and he loves everyones attention! I think Johnny is going to grow up to be something amazing. He is so many things: ornery, intelligent, adorable, fire-cracker and a talker. I am a proud mom even though at times I want to pull my hair out.. LOL

more picks of Hannah's B-day Party!

They had a blast

Bike Racing!

Jason and Joyce

John and Conner hanging out


Me and John.. What a hottie! I guess Johns not bad looking either..LOL

Karen and myself! Karen knows how to pack a lunch let me tell you she not only goes to watch her husband bike race but she also goes to take care of him afterwards how supportive

This is Conner, I had to show this photo, he makes the most funniest faces!

Here is Jason showing us the bike track he was racing. It was rocky then I did not hear much more because they found a dead snake and I have a huge fear of snakes dead or alive..

Here is Jay in most of his gear. How hot that must be to wear that-YIKES! He does have this backpact thing that holds water and he can drink it through and attached straw...It was a very hot day and John and I wished we would have gotten there earlier, next time we will. John was proud of his brother, and enjoyed watching him race. The proudest moment was the beginning and we all cheered for Jason as he "took off"!

Eating out!

Ok when I get my photos uploaded I will share what a wonderful day I had watching my little brother (in law-even though I love him more like a real brother) riding his dirt bike today. It was a blast, more on that later..

Joyce and John came and then we all went back to their house and then out to eat. Joyce saw first hand what I deal with when it comes time to eating out with Hannah. It is a stressful time for the both of us. Hannah had tears in her eyes and I fought them. I don't know what to do..

We talked on the way home, this summer is all about getting healthy. No more candy and cookies for awhile. Her body needs a healing. She agreed, wow that was a blessing. She told me she wants to feel healthy....

She is so good with money, but getting a summer job was not an option this year. It might not be the smartest move, but I really really want her rested and healthy. This has been a hard year and with her Iron storage not working I just feel in my gut that she does not need a full time job right now. I am not worried about her not being able to be responsible, she is better than me and John and I am proud of her for that..

I am worried about her though. I am going to call her doctor on Monday, I have not said anything but I am worried about her. She has been having MAJOR hot flashes. Now they are waking her up in the night. What is going on??????? My poor little girl.... So, keep praying, I am going to call her doctor for the billionth time, I call so much they know me when I say, " Hi, its Lena", but they love me and Hannah so its ok to bug them. LOL
Well thats all for now..

Down and Out

Ok, so today and for a few days I have been on the down-and-out side of life! I am so tired all the time I was hoping that going Gluten free would help me with energy. I am going to start walking before it gets to hot during the day in hopes that I will get energy in the daytime instead of in the evening!
I am still trying to figure out what to feed my family.. Its not easy. A person would think it is but I not only deal with a child who has Celiac but a Celiac who is picky.. I keep telling her to learn to like new things, but its not that easy. Then I deal with guilt that really is not my fault, but the kind of guilt a mom has when she tells her daughter "no you can't have that". I can see she is really getting depressed about it and I am trying to find her a support group, I might have to start one for her. I hate living in Owensville now.. I just HATE it.. Everything is so far away. Support groups, special stores, restaurants that cater to Celiacs..
Money wise, its horrible. We would eat a lot of pasta because it was cheep, we don't eat much pasta now because it is so expensive! I have to buy a lot of meats and fresh foods and we all know how much it cost to eat healthy.. ok.. so I am on a pitty bandwagon, but this is my way to release what is going on in my brain....
John and I were doing so good on Dave Ramsey's Get out of Debt, but then I don't know what happened, budgeting for food was hard. This summer it is my goal to figure it out. LOL
I did find a store that was great. Expensive on some things and wonderful on other items, but its in Clayton and not so easy to hop in the car and go. I found some frozen personal size pizzas that Hannah loved, they are from Glutino but they cost 5 dollars each.. YIKES.. I try to make homade pizza but...YUCK most of the time.. I think I will get better...
One night I made biscuits and gravy, I was determined to make Hannah a meal that she loved.. The biscuits were.....small.. chewy.... sad.. the gravy was like eating glue....Johnny liked it. LOL
That's were my sadness lies.. Everything is changing and it has to.. My daughter is sick and I don't know what else to do to make this transition better.. I can't budget the food right, we don't eat out, I am ALWAYS cooking and cleaning and honestly I am tired.. So, there you have it.. I don't always have it together, but I don't let Hannah know that.. She helps me a lot though, the best she can...